She asked, "So if there's a war between America and Mexico, who would you fight for?" In all my years it's not something that ever really crossed my mind. Possibly partially because as a Xicano, I feel that we are in a constant war of ideology with U.S. politics. However it didn't take me long to answer her hypothetical question, and I explained that it would depend on the purpose of the war, or the ideology behind it. Did the U.S. violate some type of international law and is Mexico simply responding by using force because the U.S. is involved in some type of oppressive secret war we don't know about? Or is it that Mexico wants to invade the U.S. to oppress the people here and exploit particular resources?
In other words I couldn't give her a straight answer. I think she found it amusing that I'm a Mexican born in America, the U.S. She referred to Mexico as "your country," even though I explained I was born and raised in the U.S. I think she found it intriguing that Mexico is right next door to the U.S., yet I didn't respond to her question by saying I would side with Mexico if there were ever a war. She seemed to expect a part of me to be very nationalistic and side with "my country" regardless of the particularities of a war between the 2 countries. But as I explained to her, I couldn't, I needed to understand the purpose, I didn't believe in simply following blindly, for any struggle there seems to be a purpose and I would need to know the purpose before simply siding with one way or the other.
It seemed amusing to her that I am a Mexican-American. I think she seemed to believe that I was simply Mexican, there was no hyphen and "American" needed, because ultimately I was Mexican. I was just a Mexican that happened to be born in America. Once I told her my area of study, that of Chicano Studies, she had a befuddled look on her face, and inquired further into what a "Chicano" is. I tried to explain that essentially it was a Mexican-American or Mexican born in the U.S., but that it was also about a particular ideology. I tried to look at things from her perspective, being that she's international, she seemed not to grasp the whole Chicano or Mexican-American thing. For her I seemed to be a Mexican born in America. Hence the question about my loyalties if there were ever a war between the two countries. Nonetheless, it was a question I'm glad she asked, because again, it had never occurred to me, until she posed it.
Later on that evening she echoed to me something I've heard from my friends plenty of times, "You think too much."